What's up, Doc?

Well, life gets busy - this I know.

Times get tough - ditto above.

Shitty things happen - sucks, but deal.

I am having a tough time lately with the future. Not sure why now... but it happens, right?
I am scheduled for major surgery in Aug, but who knows if it will happen as it is not life threatening. It could be postponed. But, for whatever reason - I am scared.

Scared that I will die on the table. Scared that my children will grow up with out me. Scared that I haven't done enough with my life yet.

I joined weight watchers to try to save my life. I need to be in better health to live along side my children. I want to be a grandma. I want to retire. I WANT TO LIVE!!! Dammit!

Okay, enough with the drama....

So, let it be know that I will do my best NOT to die under the knife. I have a lot to live for.
My kids are destined to have me mother them forever, like it or not.

So, talk to you later,

~G~