A really great site!

I have found a really great website!

It is a support for women who are considering, planning, and recovering from a Hysterectomy. Let me tell you, there is a lot of crazy scary information out there, and it is comforting to know that there are "sisters" who want to help.

Hysterectomy Support by HysterSisters.com

If you love someone who is or has gone through this, I highly recommend it.

I feel more ready now than ever~

~G~

What's up, Doc?

Well, life gets busy - this I know.

Times get tough - ditto above.

Shitty things happen - sucks, but deal.

I am having a tough time lately with the future. Not sure why now... but it happens, right?
I am scheduled for major surgery in Aug, but who knows if it will happen as it is not life threatening. It could be postponed. But, for whatever reason - I am scared.

Scared that I will die on the table. Scared that my children will grow up with out me. Scared that I haven't done enough with my life yet.

I joined weight watchers to try to save my life. I need to be in better health to live along side my children. I want to be a grandma. I want to retire. I WANT TO LIVE!!! Dammit!

Okay, enough with the drama....

So, let it be know that I will do my best NOT to die under the knife. I have a lot to live for.
My kids are destined to have me mother them forever, like it or not.

So, talk to you later,

~G~

I'm back....

Well, it took Carrie Bradshaw to get me back to blogging. I haven't been on in a while. I lost my way, but I'm back.

I saw Sex in the City tonight.

Two words....

Loved it.

The writers did not let me down. I was worried - I mean how do you recreate that kind of magic 4 years later?

Nailed it!

I loved Big and Carrie - it was such the right story for them. I loved the shoes, the wit the emotion.

I loved Charlotte and Harry - I am glad nothing bad happens to them. She deserved her fairy tale.

I loved Miranda and Steve - Wow, he screwed up big. Wow, it took a big girl to get over that.

I loved Samantha and Smith - I am glad their story ended like it did, and I am glad she didn't cheat.

I loved the city, the food, the colours, the people. I swear when I walked out of the theatre I could hear the cabs and smell the street meat. I was in NYC in my imagination. Isn't that what movies are for? To let you escape for a while? I used to watch Anne of Green Gables and Sound of Music and feel like I was Anne and Maria. I love the feeling. Always will.

So, after watching the movie, I did what I am sure many single women did. I went to Zellers, bought shampoo, hair colour, sunscreen and got my groove back.
~G~

Daily chaos...

These days have been crazy lately... and I know I say that alot, but it's true. So many things have changed in our home, and I am having a hard time dealing with it all.

Gareth is on new meds.
Sarah is growing and I am afraid she will get fat like me.
Mom is in Ottawa with Cori and the twins. She needs to be there.
This house is a mess, and I am not doing well managing it.
I feel as though I get nothing done and that the kids are being neglected.
I don't bathe them enough.
I don't make my bed. ever.
I am behind in my scrapping.
I am very behind in my bills.
I am extremely behind in life.
I think i am failing horribly at this life.

When does life get easier?
When will I get my shit together?
I want a clean organized house.
I want to go to school.
I want my kids to be happy.
I want enough money to pay my bills and be responsible.
Am I asking to much?
Who will help me?
Who?

~G~

New baby Pics!

Just realized that I haven't posted any new pics of the twins.

Here they are!

They are at the exact weight now - 11 pounds 14 1/2 pounds! Mitchie has caught up in a big way! They are both smiling and laughing and have found their hands! I love them so!

Enjoy!

~G~

Inspiration

Here is a link to a wonderful blog that I look to regularily for inspration.

I hope you enjoy Nitty Gritty like I do.

http://www.jodyferlaak.blogspot.com/

Jody is a wonderful woman who challeneges herself daily and finds the strength to lead her family through many "waves".

Enjoy

Busy weekend!

Hiya folks!
Lots to update you on today.

Had a great weekend out at Westley Acres with the S&S crowd! If you recall, the last scrapbooking retreat that I attended there I came down with the worst case of strep throat in history. I stayed in bed all weekend with fever and hardly got anything done! I more than made up for it! What an awesome time! I wore the crown a few times and managed to win a prize as well as make some new friends! Hi to all my girlies! Amy, Tiff and Myra - I want to do nasty things with ya! Leave my pickle alone! Ida and I gave each other expert advice and Paula just bugged me all weekend! (JK - loved it!) Jan and I were good roomies, and I think we taught Jordan a little too much! If you haven't had a chance to crop with the Scrapbooks & Smiles bunch, you don't know what you are missing.

Sarah had her recital on Saturday. What a good job she did! I cried, I was so proud of her. I am sure she felt awkward not being able to do a cartwheel with her class, but boy oh boy she got out there and strutted her stuff. And my friend's daughter - WOW! She also does Acro Jazz and had surgery to correct scoliosis in her back. They inserted a metal rod in her back. You would never know it as she leaps and cartwheels with the rest of them. Did I mention she cartwheels without touching the floor? Yup - she is not only an amazing dancer, but an awesome young woman as well.

Mom is in Ottawa enjoying some baby time. I will be joining her shortly as I am so very jealous. I miss them something awful! I never knew being an Aunt could feel so good! I will definitely be getting some lovin' straight from the twin oven!

Have a great week and stay warm with someone you love!
I'll leave you with some warm words.

ANNIE'S SONG (John Denver)
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest
Like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean
You fill up my senses come fill me again.

Come let me love you, let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.

INSTRUMENTAL VERSE
...Let me give my life to you
Come let me love you, come love me again.

You fill up my senses like a night in a forest
Like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.

~G~

I'm gonna knock you out....

Well, I tried boxing and baseball today - on the wii that is. Baseball is fun and two people can play together, against each other. One pitches the other swings. Pretty cool. But the big whoo haw of the day was boxing! WOW! What a work out! I am not exaggerating. I was jabbing and dodging and kicking ass! I was so heated that I had mom put her hand on my back - yuck...wet! I was a doubter that a video game could give you exercise, but it does - it truly does!
I also like the little reminders to take a break and go out side!

Also, I did the fitness test and you will be happy to know that my fitness age today is 56! YIKES! I will try to see if my fitness gets better, I'd at least like to be in the 30's!

The kids love this thing and of course there were fights.... but all in all the day was good and there were no wii controllers in the TV. (I can totally see how that happens....)

Tomorrow is Monday and I am back at work.

God bless you all...
God bless Nintendo...

behave
~G~